Thinking of giving up on something. Should i? Shouldn't i?

Give up!! I always say those words. But when the time comes, my heart says NO!! Dear heart, why? Are u with me? You've been hurt, but u keep strong. Stronger than my mind. I keep denying things, feelings.. but u heart, u are strong. keep saying i shouldn't give up. But what's the matter for me staying if nothing i can get. Yes, i don't know. My Creator has the best plans for me. I want to be strong too. I want to keep denying the 'truth'.. the 'reality'.. I hate u. Hate u. That's the words i want to say, because i want to deny my true feeling. BUT,, it's hard. I can't. I know i can't. What should i do? Coward! You! Yes!